Saturday, February 14, 2004
Happiness freshens our grief
Feb 14 2004 11:51 am
I'm happy and pleased for him, I really am. But I'm also upset and sad, my own life is pretty tumultuous at the momen, and I miss my mom like crazy.
There you go, now I'm more confused than I was before.
That's always a good sign.
I think there will always be stuff that pleases us but freshens our grief. When Lee got her report card, it broke my heart that I couldn't tell my mother. She's been dead over 8 years.
What works for me is to acknowledge and deal with both. I've got to sob about missing my mother, and I've got to celebrate the report card. As long as I'm honest with myself and I give both their due, the one doesn't poison the other. I agree with Anne, too, I'm honest with other people about it, too. Somewhere in all "I'm so pround of you"s I told Lee that I was sad I couldn't tell my mother.
jane
